what and why?

what is love?

what is life?

what is pain?

what is justice?

what is truth?

why is there suffering?

why is there crime?

why is there evil?

what is....what is...why is...why is...

i always ask these things in this changing world...but lately, i have asked myself...

WHO AM I?

"not yet understanding life, how can you understand death?" -Confucius

hiding...and showing...

Lies…and Light

Should I hide myself
to someone I do not know?
Should I continue to live a lie
that someday would finally show?

How long shall I conceal myself
under the dark room of secrecy?
Am I just afraid of the truth?
Am I living inside my fantasy?

I know…people know me
A different me in every place
But how if they fin’lly know who I really am?
Should I still be able to live…in shame?

I need to get out…out of this misery
For I fear…that this would break me.
I need to face myself…face what is right
And I pray that…the truth will be my light!

poem of a sad person in love...and lost...(that's me!)

My Friend…I’m Sorry

I want to go back
To the moment you said “Hi!”
But my heart doesn’t want
Coz’ I’ve hurt you so much
And made the deepest wounds inside

All that I had expressed
Is everything that I feel
But…hope turned to fears
Laughter turned to tears
And broke my heart… to pieces

I had this feeling
I never thought I could have
Those memories I kept
That made my lonely days bright
Are replaced by clouds bringing fear

I know, people come and go
Fall, spring and winter flow
My days turned to gray
But my friend, I would like to tell you this…
I’m sorry…Goodbye…
“Til then…

an angry moment...

it seems like the people around me are so....pessimistic!

ok...i admit, i am a strict kind of person, but i only do it when i had to...

who on earth would be happy if you know that some of the people around you are not following you?

i am a chairman of one of those committees in the seminary that is both tempting...and difficult to handle. that is because, i handle the computers around here...

i do not like to happen what happened in the past year...

can't they see that?!

okay, i'll try to leave them and do what they want for a while...and i'll see what comes of them...

would they be happy, or would they get messed up?

oh well....

Very busy....

whew!

ever since i made it back in the seminary after my summer vacation, i can't help but wonder...

will i have a chance to take some time off?

well, i'm not complaining though...

you see, since i came, my superiors has given me many tasks to accomplish...with so little time.

I can, i am always saying to myself, even to the point that even my body is exhausted and my mind cannot even think of a concrete decision...

But now, i finished my job...and i need to take some rest, 'coz i know this would not last long...

"it is not only me who works everytime i use all my faculties, because someone up there, is my guide..."