Just a few updates on what happened to me during my “digital/blog” absence…
Since my last post (August), I had encountered one hurdle after another, and one particular hurdle that I am had was the moment my girlfriend broke up with me. Yah, we’re back to each other as of the moment, but that doesn’t erase the fact that it happened. Moreover, it left us both with wounds to heal, as well as lessons to learn.
Sometimes, I just can’t understand myself. Why do I still have to suffer a lot for me to learn? Why do I have to experience being slammed in the face with the unbridled truth just to realize that I am wrong? Why can’t I accept things at the very moment they’re given to me? With the attitude that I have right now, I have doubts if I am worthy of what is given me…
I’ve made wrong choices and decisions in my life, and these not only affect me, but others as well. What I always resent with myself if that when these things happen, others suffer; if not with me, because of me. Maybe I am just being punished for everything that I did wrong, with myself and with others.
Whatever consequences I have to face because of my stupidity and ignorance, I have to face. Yah, even if I don’t want it. Maybe, I just don’t learn from what it seems like a “broken record”…
