“You don’t have to carry the burden by yourself
Let your friends take some of your pain, and the resolve that goes with it!
Did you ever think about how everyone around you felt while you tried to carry everything on your own?
I know someone who didn’t like to rely on others, just like you
In the end, he was weaker than everyone else!”
These lines were taken from the Bleach Movie 2: The Diamond Dust Rebellion. I can somehow relate to these lines spoken by Substitute Shinigami (Death God) Kurosaki Ichigo to 10th Squad Shinigami Captain Hitsugaya Toushirou, who seemed to have abandoned his squad to move through his personal agenda (watch the movie and you’ll see).
With that aside, I can be seen as both the person speaking those lines and the person spoken to with it. There are times when I want to tell people, especially those close to me, to share with me their pains, sufferings or anything negative; as well as anything contrary to it. However, that being something wanted remains at it is, and never reached fruition. I must also consider the fact that letting the person do as he/she wishes is the best thing to do in certain situations.
I have friends, but I can say that they (or even me, honestly) changed. Some went through their lives…on a different pace, on a different path…a path where I am not a part of. I can say that I did the same. Sometimes I realize that the best for me is to think about people who had been parts of my past remain as such, and that was a lesson taught to me by someone.
But for those who are still there (either physically or in thought), especially those who I still have the chance to talk to, listen to, and be with, I try my best to let them know that I am still here; whatever the circumstances may be. Moreover, I let them know that I am not only here, but that they can always come to me whenever they want to, or whatever they wish to let me be a part of. I am a barkada to some, an acquaintance to others, and an older brother to many.
For those times that I was somehow the one spoken to with those li`nes, I can remember that I felt that I am better off without others; that I can do everything on my own. I thought I can face my own problems, deal with my own downfalls and sufferings and just be happy by myself whenever something good comes along. I was wrong, and I realized it when I met my girlfriend. I can remember sometime in the past when she told me that I was strong in a world where only I live; and when I am already out of it, I am the weakest person. Then I realized that though there may be times that people may seem to be more of a burden than a help to me, them being there could mean so much after all.
With all of these said, I realized that I can never be the person that I am now without those people that I had shared my life with, and had shared their lives with me. Whatever the chances, places, people, times and even experiences that I was opened up to…made me the person I was, makes me the person that I am now, and will make me the person that I’ll be.
