Sunday, February 18, 2007

when we fall in love...

i used this short essay that i composed months ago in my valentine's day recitation in one of my subjects. it's already translated, so it would be easily understood. this is what feel right now...somehow....

In love there are so many rare chances that you’ll meet the person you love and loves you in return. You know you love them when you met them. She had you at hello, you look at her and you sigh. It feels like it has never been like this before.

Now, wonder which hurts most, saying something and wishing you have not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? Some people have a hard time dragging their foot out of their mouth. I guess the most important things are the hardest thing to say. They are things you get ashamed because words diminished them, words shrinking things that seemed timeless when they were in your head…to more than living size. There are truths that some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better kept to your heart but love has its way of expressing itself even in silence. When they are brought out, don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them. Once you have it don’t ever let it go, the chance might never come your way again. It’s not what you say---It’s how you say it.

If you’re just a boy standing in front of a girl asking her to love you, well you better know how. If you do, they might break your heart but if you don’t you might break theirs. You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is being someone who can be loved and the rest is up to the person to realize your worth. People are made to be love and things are made to be used. That’s why there is so much chaos in the world, people are being used and things are being loved.

The measure of love is if you love without measure. When you truly care for that person, you don’t look for faults, answers or questions. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook excuses.

It’s so easy to fall for someone. How? You look at that person, stop, smile, and tell your self this,” I may find a thousands or maybe billion others who laugh, smile or even talk the same way but I may never find someone who makes heartbeat worth, every beat and every rush.” Our heart decides who it likes and who it doesn’t. You can’t tell your heart what to do and who to love, it does it own. If you have someone who makes you feel that way…go ahead…Fall…

the week i cannot forget...

i came home from school last february 9, hoping that ill have some time to relax myself from all of the things that's happening to me at school. i want to spend some available time with those that i want to be with...those that i want to do, my family, friends...and someone special.
before that, i felt something was wrong, and somehow, i found it hard for me to go home, unlike the previous weeks that passed...something was wrong, but i dismissed that fact. besides, what would go wrong if i am with...
but the following days were proofs that there was something really wrong. i want to wake up from this nightmare, if it is.
if someone would ask me if i am ok...i am not. and i think it would be a long time before i will be. and that time, would never be the same...

and still, this nightmare goes on...

Saturday, February 17, 2007

why do i have to experience these things that i am experiencing right now?

Friday, February 09, 2007

i dont want to...

i don't want to get angry today...even if i have enough reasons to be.
i don't want to think about it...

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

our foundation week ended last wednesday, jan. 31, 2007. immediately after that, i proceeded to go home, even if it is already past 8 in the evening. i just want to go home, since i was not able to go home the previous weekend. i have my reasons, and my reasons are really that big for me to go...
i arrived at around 9:30, thanks to fr. joel who gave me a ride til sucat, coz he's going to antipolo.

anyway, i was home from wednesday until today, tuesday.

and i feel great!

why?

someone knows why...