aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i find it funny when people just can't seem to get rid of that attitude of "i'll get back at you". funny...everyone just wants to get even..
when is it gonna stop? when someone's already "dead"?
let me know...maybe, that's one of those things that i really admit to be "uneducated" of...as of this time.

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why do some people take so much pride in correcting another person, even at the price of humiliating the other to elevate oneself?
why do some people keep on looking on other people's lives, and decides on whatever that live does, even if it is not one's own?
why is it that there are times that people can't forgive?

i don't know the answers as of yet...

do you?

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some people tell me that i am pessimistic
others, see me as optimistic
i dare not be grouped in those
i would rather have myself in that little corner
where only some stay...

that corner where reality prevails

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don't be so confident that you still have what you have...
are you just conceited, or plainly blind?

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i noticed that recently, my blogposts have an irate nature...
maybe, i'm just tired
of what?
think...maybe, you'll know why.

Post-Birthday Blog

Last May 19, I celebrated my 21^st birthday. I never expected it to be the way it had been. It was not a celebration, if such word had to be used. You see, my grandfather died the day before (see previous post). My mother sent me a text message telling us to prepare for an immediate sojourn in Batangas, at my grandfather’s wake. We left the house, May 18, at around 9:30 and arrived to the place 2 hours after. When midnight struck, I did not think that anyone would even bother to greet me, but some did. My parents greeted me, but I can see clearly that there is a feeling of deep grief in them, especially with my mother. I tried to smile, though honestly, I want to cry.

I remember, the time before we went to the wake, both of my parents asked me on how I can celebrate my birthday. I just told them that this is not the time for that. I cannot be happy when everyone else grieves. I told them that I won’t have a celebration…that’s fine with me, I accepted what happened.

Still, I appreciate those who greeted me during my birthday. Some people from the past greeted me, much to my surprise (thanks Ica!). Friends from the Youth Ministry also sent me greetings, which I really thought to be sweet. Most of all, I received the best gift ever from someone special…(thanks....)

That made me think…indeed, we have our share of good and bad times, but how we see the results of it, is another thing. It’s a matter of choice…and I decided, to be happy.

death...

my grandfather died last may 18...in 72 years of age. he died due to lung complications, at around 11:30 in the morning. i received the message from my mom at around 3 in the afternoon. last week, we went to batangas for an emergency visit to my dying grandfather. and sadly, not a week after, he died.

so unpredictable...sad...

May 14 posts (late)

As The Country Awaits

As the country now waits for the new set of senators and local leaders, certain issues started to surface once more, and still, it hungers for something that is always left behind: answers.

Answers to what? People nowadays are really weary in choosing leaders to lead them to what they desire. And in the case of national and local leaders, the people are looking for “qualified” leaders to govern them to their hopes and dreams of a better society, or a better life. I cannot blame people to be idealistic; it’s their right to hope for those kinds of things. What is wrong with hoping for a better life, anyway? Even I hope for a better situation in our country, which is starting to be seen as crumbling to the ground.

One may ask: what makes “leaders” qualified? For this, relativity of answers is obvious. People of all walks of life; depending on their lifestyle, environment and certain other factors, have a certain notion of what makes a leader as such. For the pragmatics (as I call them), those who can provide for them what they want and need, are the true leaders of the country. For the general idealists, those who promise better lives are the true leaders. Still, for the others, difference in thoughts and ideas help them derive the suitable leader for them.

Yet…we cannot deny the fact of existence of another group who belongs to the society during these times: those who do not care. I’m pretty sad to admit that there those who gave up hoping for the country. There exists a collection of people who care more about their own personal lives and left the others to decide for the fate of the country. I am not judging them…their actions speak for themselves.

Still, my hopes are up. But my grip of reality stays…

Doing My Part

Since I wasn’t able to have myself registered as a voter in the elections a few years back, I made sure that my voice (or my will) will be counted in last Monday’s election. I registered last December with Joan, and to date, I am the only one in the family registered here in Parañaque (since my parents and two older sibling were registered in Muntinlupa).

I wished to do something more, and I decided to do so. How? I joined the PPCRV (Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting) of our parish. I registered, with Joan once more, to be pollwatchers.

The day came for the elections and we watched our assigned precincts religiously. It wasn’t thrilling. I have to admit, I was somehow bored of the proceeding that we went through the whole day. We started at 7 in the morning and left at around 9 in the evening. I was saddened by the fact that there are still a percentage of people who were not able to vote on that day. In the two voting precincts that I watched that day, one held 101/165 (those who vote over to those who did not); and the other only had 109/195. I dare not make any assumptions on why they were not able to vote; I just hope it’s not because they lost hope already, which led them to be lazy to even vote.

But, if I may, could I ask?

Does our vote really count?

Time and Thoughts

Time Flies…So are Responsibilities

Somehow, I feel this month of May would be fast. Ok, it would still end up with 31 days in its sleeve, but the events that would transpire within this month would make it look so fast and fleeting. That reminds me, what are still the things that I need to do?

I honestly admit, there are still things in my summer agenda that I have not yet fulfilled, for one reason or another. But as long as the school year hasn’t started yet, I have every time I need to do whatever I need to.

With regards to some of my duties and responsibilities, here’s an update: my term in DBC’s Student Council would be over this coming school year, I’m planning to lay down my position as Feature Ed of the school’s paper, and also did a L.O.A. for my Singles Encounter Group. My other membership to school’s organizations were just short-timed or short-goaled, so when the goal was reached, we were just practically dissolved. At the beginning of the month, I talked with my PYM’s Youth Coordinator to tell her that I’ll need a break from the ministry. Good thing is that she allowed me to. Still, my affiliations with other organizations are placed in the line of my decision wherein I should stay or not.

Why all the sudden turn-down of responsibilities, you say? Simple. I need to focus on more important things right now. Don’t get me wrong: I say “more important”, so that means that even those that I laid down are important. But judging from the situation that I am in now, I could just afford to concentrate and give my whole attention to less than five important factors in my life.

Just Some Thoughts…Again

I think it would be hypocrisy for me to say that I could still give; even if I don’t have anything to give…I feel that it’s not giving, but bargaining. Why? Coz’ at the back of my head, I’m urged to think of asking for something in return.

I think it’s hard for just one person to go to the other side for the sake of the other. I believe that no one could be perfectly the same as the other person. Meet in the middle, will ya?

I think it’s just stupid for someone to meddle with other people’s personal lives. There is a thin line between caring and meddling, so watch where you are right now.

Failing to act on something leads someone to blame everything besides oneself

Some people are just too full of themselves, that they don’t see other people as they are. Rather, they just see others are either mere shadows along their path or someone who is trying to be like them. And in the process, they pity them; though not evidently.

A general thought: one cannot judge something or someone as such (either good or bad) without giving reference to one side (most of the time, that which is good). However, is that which is considered as the reference point, really must be the reference? Let’s face it: people are sometimes standing on the wrong ground.

Getting Piggy and Dirty

“If you let yourself fall in a pig sty and you’re left with the pigs, don’t fight them. If you do, there are only two things that are most likely to happen: First, you get dirty and trampled upon; second, they’ll be dirty, but happy, much to their pleasure.”

Am I the one who fell in the pig sty?

Or am I one of the pigs?