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A few months back, on this day (the 19^th), I formally thought of myself as no longer single. And I finished acting like one.

I am no longer single, and I chose to be. And until today, I am living in that decision. I know she still chooses it too.

Yes, she is my first girlfriend. Many tell me that I am becoming too idealistic with regards to my present relationship (since it’s my first). I don’t know, maybe I do. Some still tell me that I am giving too much. Maybe I am, but I don’t regret it.

I always tell her that I do not have any regrets that she was the one I chose to be with. We may have our differences, but that’s alright. What’s more important right now for me, I believe, is that we understand each other, we are there for each other, and we love each other as such as we can and do.

I am fully committed to her and to this relationship that I have. There may have been times that I fell short of the things that I should have done, but I will try to be the best that I can be.

I chose not to be the perfect one for her, but I am trying to be the right one. And I think, that is what she wants more.

For my girlfriend: I love you, and I will always be here for you and with you, no matter what.

a moment of comic thinking

last friday, while we were waiting for our turn for our oral exams in rational psychology, some of my classmates and i shared a little chat about ideas we brought up in our study. i would like to share one here.

my classmate asked: "what if God thinks and acts like a human being?"
one answered: "if that is so, how would he react when one enters heaven?"

here comes the scenario...we believe that when one passes from this life to the other (that is, when we are already in front of the ultimate good, who is GOD), one will never be able to resist Him. the only thing that one can do is but surrender to the ultimate goodness that is God.

placing a comic picture of heaven, with the gates of heaven in front of someone going to it, we pictured out what that person may be saying:

"yes! i am in heaven now! i am so happy! i will be with God! i will never ask for anything else!"

however, on the other side of the gate, God (placing that God thinks and acts like us) thinks:

"will I be happy when he comes here?"

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we meant not to degrade or cause anything negative to the idea, as well as the image of God. however, i assume that one (as i did), can reflect on this scenario.

at the end of this blog...i would like to ask: "what are we doing in this life that would please God?"

OK…We believe it’s time

For these past months, I was trying to discern whether or not to do something that I thought could somehow be left undone. However, I was wrong. It is really right to say that the truth will reveal itself in time. Still, it is right to say that the truth will set us free.

Looking into the past, why was I thinking like that? Why am I still trying to think about saying the truth? Can you blame me for not trusting the people I used to trust? Can you blame me for not saying the truth?

But, looking into myself, what was it that I was thinking about? What did I fear? Who? Was I anxious or depressed at the fact that I feared rejection and criticism? I was weighing the scales…and at some point in time, I had the wrong measurement.

But now, before the truth is tainted with lies, here it goes…

I am in love, and the person that I am in love with is now with me. In short, she’s my girlfriend now. Who, you say? Would there be anyone else?

At this point, let me explain myself, though I need not to…

The reason why I decided to forego the immediacy of telling people of this truth is not only for me; but also for her. We were both going through a lot of things lately, and we are trying to avoid anything that would make matters worse. I admit, being here was not easy, but even if it’s hard, it was all worth it. If people would judge us on this, let it be. But I believe that for the both of us, as well as for the rest of the minority who understands the whole picture…I did the right thing.

If the truth, whether the whole or in part, needs to be known, let us know…we’ll fill you in. Nobody will ever give you what you ask in this…no one…except us.

What the?!

Just last Tuesday, my father texted me (since I’m in Canlubang) about them receiving a mail from the school. They received my grades from last semester. I just don’t know how or why they always get my grades before me, but no matter…I’m just happy that they’re getting to see what I’m trying to do to make myself better…in school.

I just noticed…from my former school…I never received flat 1’s for a grade…I can remember that I had 1.25 for P.E. (Karatedo) in my first year 2^nd semester and second year 2^nd semester. But here, in Don Bosco, I never thought I’ll even have one of that. First semester last year, I got 1, and for the following semester, I had 2.

Anyway, here’s what my parents received. I’m satisfied with this…and still, I’ll have to make myself better, right?

DON BOSCO COLLEGE

Final Grades: 2^nd Term, 2006-2007

STUDENT ID: 0607001

NAME: Afable, Kristoffer B.

COURSE: AB-Philo

YEAR: 4th Year

Subject Code	Subject Title	Units	Grade
Fil 002	Panitikang Filipino	3	1.75
HPL 102	Scholasticism of St. Thomas Aquinas ( History of Medieval Philosophy)	3	1.00
HPL 109	History of Contemporary Philosophy	3	1.00
LTN 122	Church Latin II	2	2.00
Phl 105	Philosophy of Science and Technology (Cosmology)	3	1.50
Phl 133	Seminar: Political Philosophy	3	1.50
RLT 008	Marriage and Family Life	3	1.75
		Average (GPA)	1.48