Pain

This blog was supposed to be posted last July, but silly me, I always forget to post this one….
Anyway, from my recent post, I’ve written about those silly-minded actions I made with a friend, and true enough, that parting that I wrote is still going on…and it is not easy for me. The memory of what I did gives me the gloom every time I remember.
Still, many questions roam in my mind, like: “Why did I do that? Why can’t I mend the brokenness I feel? Why can’t I forgive? Why can’t I be forgiven?”
I still see her in the school, but every time that I do, I just look down, and during many times, I walk away; trying to avoid those painful memories again…
When will this pain go away?